5 Day Transfer It Is!

So that was the good piece of news that I got this morning. The doc I spoke with reported that they felt there were enough good quality (8-10 cell) embryos to push me off to a Day 5 transfer, initially alleviating much of the worry I knew I would have if they told me to come in today. It is nice to know sometimes that the universe has it's own plan that is (shockingly!) not influenced by your own neurotic and negative thoughts and proceeds ahead independently. A novel idea, I know! My negative thoughts just seem to carry so much weight in my puny little head that I sometimes I forget that I can't control the outcome of world events just by worrying about them. It's good to be put back in my place! When I was little I used to have this paranoid fear that if I stared at a plane in the air that I would make it crash to the ground just by looking at it. You can see the root of my neuroses....

That was my brief bit of optimism for this morning. It lasted all of about an hour. Apparently, optimism and grand revelations about the universe are NOT, after all, as powerful as the evil little man in my head. Who knew? My worries evolve just as quickly as each little bit of information we receive. Ready for this second's bit of fear????? That our overachieving little embryos will suddenly stop growing between now and Friday as I know that this is the time that the sperm DNA really kicks in and could result in the sudden arrest our little buddies. Since sperm issues have been our greatest challenge up until this point I feel like this fear is justified and not that unreasonable. I also realize that many people out there would give anything to get this far so I feel guilt that I am not just basking in my current luck! I wish I could spread it to all!