HaPPPy New Year

Beta=600-something!! (i barely heard anything beyond the six hundred...)

Holy shit.

We are, for this moment anyway, pregnant!!!

I must admit that on Thursday I did POAS and did get a strong positive though I still was
in denial and paranoid until today. OK, definitely still in Denial Land a bit but at least I know the positive is not due to faulty stick or inadequate peeing techniques.

Go back on tomorrow for next beta.

It know it is still incredibly early and lot could still happen but we have gotten farther than I ever though we would which gives me hope. With my joy comes great guilt that we have been lucky thus far in our first IVF when many who have tried and struggled for so long are still fighting the good fight. I wish for the New Year that for so many of you who deserve it perhaps more than I to also be in this place and for us to all have a fertile journey together in 2008.

Beta Day

Today’s the big day! Got up ass early to make it to the clinic for my test. I should hear between 3 and 4 today. Am feeling pretty hopeful (yes, I am shocking my paranoid self by feeling this way) about this. For the last three or four days I have been having quite a few symptoms of sorts, starting with a saucy dream on Thursday night which almost resulted in the big “O”. Somehow the lucid bit of my brain intervened to put a stop to it, reminding me that I am not supposed to have one of those during the 2ww! At that point I woke up to realize I was having intense burning cramps in my uterus of a somewhat different nature than A.F. Must have been the cause of all that, ahem…stimulation down there. I felt the urge to eat something immediately which, of course, I did. I could not sleep the rest of the night due to the discomfort. Not sure if from the cramps or the load of food I’d just cramped down my gullet. The following couple of days brought on a few bouts of the same in addition to some crazy abdominal distention (which made me look about 6 months pregnant and kept me from being able to button my pants) and lots of pain which lead to another couple of sleepless nights. A call to a clinic nurse two nights ago confirmed what I suspected….A mild case of OHSS. The good news there is, she explained with cautious optimism, that delayed cases of this are often brought on by increased hormones of pregnancy. Here’s hoping! I have been trying to lay low, drink electrolyte-filled liquids (finally switched to Sm.art. Water after not being able to stomach all the sugar in Vit.a.min Water). It seems to be helping somewhat. The mornings are much better than the evenings when I have lots of discomfort and have a balloon stomach. I am pretty much out of tunic shirts that will hide this sham bump. How sad. I’ve always wanted a big round bump but not like this. Such a farce. Or maybe not.........

The significance of the beta happening on the last day of 2007 is not lost on me though I feel that I should hold off on pontificating about it until the results are in. Until then, loads of work sit in front of me to keep me busy and keep my dreamy head reigned in and close to earth.